|[TM] 171 - What is the biggest mistake you've made in a relationship?
||[Mar. 26th, 2007|03:21 pm]
Specialist Ronon Dex
I’d say letting someone die is a pretty big relationship mistake, wouldn’t you?
Because that’s what happened...on Sateda, when the Wraith came. Melina...it hurts me just to say her name. I watched her die during that final battle...just before I was taken. And it all happened because we were arguing...a stupid, important, life-or-death fight about leaving through the Ring of the Ancestors.
The worst, and best thing about Melina was how hard she fought. How hard *we* fought...getting along with her was always harder than arguing. The fights came easy...and they were good, for both of us. She was so small and delicate looking, with those big wide eyes that gave her a look of perpetual fear. Sheppard describes it as a ‘deer caught in headlights’ look. I don’t know what either of those are.
A lot of days, arguing with Melina was a joy, no matter how mad she made me. It only reminded me why I loved her...the strength, the vitality in her, and the relentless drive she had that let her get anything she wanted. She wasn’t like any woman I’ve ever known. The days we didn’t butt heads were the days that bothered me.
Fighting was just so natural...talking. Arguing.
I should have forced her that day in the hospital. Picked her up and carried her out. It may not have saved her...probably wouldn’t have saved her in the end.
But if I had...I could have looked back and said that I tried.
And at least that would have been better than this.
Muse: Ronon Dex
Fandom: Stargate ATLANTIS